up down jitters funk confusion

Every now and then the things I lean on lose their meaning
and I find myself careening

When you're up, it's always worth the downtime. When you're down, it's never worth it, and you'd rather an evenness. But the evenness is a lackluster monotone.

I got a C on my last exam. Maybe a C-. Back in high school and college I'd do all my learning just before the test. The thing about the school of hard knocks -- where I find myself currently enrolled, (on scholarship!) -- is that the learning happens just after the test.