buggin' out
Why is it that when i come up
I just worry 'bout coming back down?
Never satisfied with filling my cup
Always spill it all over the ground.
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It sounds to me like your existential foundation is experiencing a red shift. (Doppler) You don't know what is around the corner, the next bend. This vagueness might be filling you up with a little bit of angst or impatience to get a move on, get things tied down, distracting you from the "moment." But, you know how to claim the moment back. These lapses in momentousness and occassional bleeding into the next parallel are only temporary. When you run you get back up. I love it when you run. I live vicariously through your feet.
-- Kate S. (August 9, 2003 4:46 PM)
I would love to think someone could piece together from my blog a fair enough understanding of me to write such a tuned (and physics-laden) horoscope.
I guess I am have an idea of what you're saying, but am a bit skeptical and confused from your language and seeming clarity.
I may be looking at a fuzz mud-puddled reflection of myself, but all you've got is the picture of that reflection I've embarrassingly chosen to draw, no?
Curiously yours,
-- jeff (August 9, 2003 8:13 PM)
also wond'ring, kate, why you sign with your old blog URL?
-- jeff (August 9, 2003 8:15 PM)
Sorry to be so cryptic. I was kind of having fun with you (a la gypsy tarot card reader, which I'm not) and trying to infuse it with a little bit of that which you let us see, via my experience, which recognized your dilema, having been there before myself. Did you not say you didn't know what you were doing after camp? Or where you were going to be living, or what kind of job you were going to get? And that you were laying down on the rock trying to enjoy the moment, but that you were consciously aware of how you were going to blog the moment, which took away from enjoying the moment? Sounds kinda existential to me! And I don't even know what that means!
Hey: Brian from Samoa wants to know if I "know" you. What should I tell him? That I know "of" you? But that you are too mercurial to define? LOL! I love reading your blog, esp. when you run (I still need to lose a few more pounds,) please don't let me freak you out. I promise to restrain myself in the future.
(BTW: I tried to fix the new url, but it didn't work. I tried it again.)
-- Kate S. (August 12, 2003 2:29 PM)
no, I don't freak out easily; just wanted to press for more.
The attention is flattering, and I'm more intrigued than anything, as my psychostate is not often dissected by others, (or at least not fed back to me if it is.)
The link to your blog worked this time, although the page body content appears to have vanished.
Ti'later.
-- jeff (August 15, 2003 7:16 PM)
Crazy small world:
Andrew ( http://www.americanidle.org/ ), who is linked to from Kate's blog, is a Peace Corps Volunteer in Samoa, and knows my good friend Su who is doing the same thing there.
Is this who you were talking about, Kate, (though you said Brian...)?
-- jeff (August 18, 2003 9:08 PM)